My spirit*67

My life has literally evolved into before and after october29 2004. In its conclusion I need two things he's taken that don't belong to him two things to restore my spirit to what it was before and feel safe again! First he took a few steps until I retrieve those steps he will stay one step ahead of every attempt to get help? Second my ability to always seek the positive or good in every dark moment to trust until given a reason not to...this is a huge part of my character it keeps my spirit clean in trying times. In the moment I trust no one not even my own children whom I feel I'm a burden. A childhood promise to God to never burden my family as my mother had done to me now I need help but I'm afraid to ask for this very reason. How this man stays ahead 14 years until I answer this question I'm a burden to anyone who loves me simply because they can't help outside moral support. I guess the next question is will I be forced to live this way forever because I'm poor and can't afford the resources I need? This brings us back to the beginning 10/29...he staged a repo of my whole life everything gone over night! I know it's not legal with enough circumstance to point at him but didn't catch him in the act so he gets away with it! He is up to something to do something so crazy if I want to catch him I have to let him follow through. If it is legal so be it! If it is not I know it will get worse and it did! 5/10/2012...I believe I have found what I am looking for only now it's not a simple truth I seek it's a hard one that's already gone to far...this is why I'm sensing danger . Health concerns?..empty nest?..menapause?..
If I'm gonna live I want my passion back as sometimes I feel dead inside. I don't expect it to ever be easy I want to be at ease with my spirit the current just conflicts have taken their toll.